My Stance Re-illustrated

Over the past year more than a hundred people have contacted me through my Mormon.org profile where I highlight my gay identity in relation to the LDS church.

The people range from detractors to supporters, from other gay Mormons looking to serve missions to parents and family members struggling to adjust to a loved one’s coming out. I have heard of missionaries in D.C., Atlanta, Tennessee and even London use my profile as a teaching tool, and those are only the ones I know about.

Today, the profile was linked to by the Huffington Post mentioning how truly unique and diverse Mormons can be in an article about the church’s massive million-dollar “I’m a Mormon” ad campaign in New York City.

I am truly flabbergasted by the support and coverage this profile has received. It has accomplished much good and helped raise LGBT issues within the church. I am glad the church has inadvertently given it voice because of their ad campaign, letting gay and other uncorrelated Mormons know they are not alone.

Because of the stringent editing process for the profile, updating content is a difficult task. I wanted to take a moment to tell you about my current story and position within the LDS church.

I am still an active member of the Church. However, by publicly stating I am gay I live in constant fear that I will lose my membership in the Church.

By planning on getting married to another man and starting a non-traditional family, thereby defying conventional Mormon stereotypes and elevating marriage equality and family values for the homosexual community, I am at risk for excommunication from my faith.

Yet by remaining an active member of the Church and contributing my time and effort to the LDS faith, thereby defying conventional gay stereotypes and attempting to cause change from within the church, I am mocked and shunned as being ignorant by the both the liberal and gay communities.

I spend my days living in this enigma, trying to create a tangential point in two seemingly irreconcilable circles of society while simultaneously spending time trying to find a balance and maintain peace within myself. It is a constant struggle and a precarious position to be in, but I am trying my best to be true to both.

My name is David Baker. I am gay and 22 years old. I work for one of the most gay-friendly companies in the world and believe in the Gospel of Jesus Christ. I am a Mormon. But I’m not your average Mormon. So take a moment and ask me anything. Seriously.