I am an ENTJ. For those of you who are unfamiliar with the Briggs-Meyer personality test, this means that I am an Extrovert who perceives information iNtuitively, makes decisions based on Thinking (not feeling) and make decisions based on Judgments of those thoughts rather than felt perceptions. For more information this link should prove useful. As I’ve noted in previous posts, I am also coming to terms with the Extroversion and see myself partly as an INTJ
ENTJ’s are described as being “fiercely independent in their decision making, having a strong will that insulates them against external influence,” and I think this is true for me. How this hurts me is in my lack of trust in, or inability to understand other people’s systems. Particularly the concept that “there is nothing new under the sun.”
I spent a lot of my time focused on re-creating the wheel when it already exists. Things I was brought up doing I trust implicitly as I have seen them work well, but new things, different things, are harder for me to grasp. Not so much in the external world, but when it comes to improving myself.
For instance, I enjoy reading the blog lifehacker which is all about small simple things you can do to alter the way you perceive the world and in general do things “better, faster, stronger.” It can be as simple as a task management system to ensure the day doesn’t get away from you, or a cool way to organize the cables at your desk so the OCD part of your brain doesn’t flip out.
I read all of these things about improving my life and then hardly ever do any of them. I hardly make plans with my life, let alone anything long-term that sticks (I have moved cross country 3 times in less than a year). I have difficulty keeping myself honed on learning a single skill or task, and I am easily distracted by noise and things that are of little actual importance to me.
This time though, things are going to be different. I plan on putting down roots for at least 2 years (which while laughable is nearly 4x my current average) and spending the next 5 bettering myself while at 1 company and/or going to 1 grad school. I am going to work to establish my position on every major public policy issue and write it down so as to become more deeply knowledgeable about various political topics as opposed to improvising or basing my decisions and thoughts on what I “feel” at the moment. And I am going to work at being comfortable as an extrovert.
These 3 things are going to be the focus of my willpower for the next 2 years and are my resolutions for the next few years. I will be breaking them into more manageable pieces so that the water can be exactly at my head and not over it. And I will be working to make myself a better person. Readers (if there are any left) please hold me to it.